I struggled with fear and anxiety for years. Studying the written word, fasting & prayer, worshiping. . eating right. . exercising and any other discipline under the sun wouldn't set me free. God's anointing would come and sooth coat and relieve my fragmented soul. However, just as Saul's tormenting spirit came back when David put down the harp, so too the anointing of God will never be a substituted for your own wholeness and sanctification. Religious disciplines can be as much of a coping mechanism as any other vise in life, to deaden, sooth or comfort emotional pain. It can be used just like a drug. I can testify of THAT.
Psalms 23 says , 'The Lord shall restore my soul.' The Hebrew word for 'restore' literally means, to 'bring back my fragmented soul'. Utilizing the imagination in prayer counseling along with stored personal memories of the past are links to help us revisit a place of trauma and fragmentation of the soul. In revisiting the place of trauma through memories we can access and release the stored emotional pain and resolve it in love and be healed.
I wasn't conscious that my soul was traumatized between the age of one and two years old for many many years. My parents locked me and my twin in our bedroom while we were still in our cribs. We would climb out of our cribs every morning to go into our parents bed to sleep with them. For whatever reason my parents didn't want this behavior to continue they locked us in.
This is one example of a dozen or so encounters with the Lord of which I had a great emotional release and a resolve in love. After going through a divorce a few years ago I have been on a journey of healing my soul. I carried around with me a lot of pain from childhood for many years. It took a lot of searching to realize how easy it was to be healed and to finally close the door to anxiety and fear. The hardest was my ego. Moving my ego out of the way to recognize that I needed to take care of some stuff in my personal life that I really didn't want to be bothered with.
Our minds rationalize out any reason we need to be healed. We often just think that if we work on our thoughts or our mantras it will get better maybe even change. My experience has been that when you heal your heart your life changes.
I really enjoy reading books written by James. B. Richards. Here is a quote taken from his book, 'Escape from Codependent Christianity'.
"The medical profession is very quick to admit that a large percentage of the physical illnesses they deal with are stress related. Stress is a non-measurable phenomenon that is created from a non-physical source. In other words, it the product of the emotional life of the individual. It is created from thoughts, beliefs, and opinions. It is negative emotional energy that ultimately affects the physical body."